Poly A Disaster is a deeply personal and emotionally gripping memoir that explores what happens when love, trauma, loneliness, and the desire to feel chosen collide. What began as an attempt to build a modern, unconventional relationship slowly unraveled into emotional chaos, manipulation, jealousy, betrayal, and the painful loss of self.
At the center of the story is a woman who spent much of her life surviving emotional wounds she never fully healed. After enduring childhood trauma and searching desperately for safety, connection, and validation, she found herself drawn into the complicated world of polyamory. What was initially framed as freedom, honesty, and expanded love eventually exposed deep insecurities, unhealthy power dynamics, blurred boundaries, and emotional devastation.
Through heartbreaking relationships, explosive conflicts, online humiliation, emotional abuse, and moments of profound loneliness, Poly A Disaster reveals the psychological toll that can come from abandoning your own intuition in order to keep others happy. It is not simply a story about polyamory gone wrong. It is a story about what happens when unresolved trauma disguises itself as sacrifice, loyalty, and unconditional love.
With raw vulnerability and unflinching honesty, the author shares the private moments many people are too ashamed to admit out loud: staying too long, accepting less than deserved, confusing chaos for passion, and shrinking oneself to preserve relationships that were slowly destroying them. Yet beneath the pain is also resilience.
As the story unfolds, so does a powerful journey toward self-awareness, accountability, healing, and rediscovery. Poly A Disaster challenges readers to examine the difference between love and self-abandonment while offering hope to anyone who has ever lost themselves trying to save a relationship.
This memoir is ultimately about survival, transformation, and learning that sometimes the greatest act of love is finally choosing yourself.
